The world is softer, smoother, more golden& the tension drains from the tightly clenched muscles in my neck and shoulders. There’s a sweet feeling that you get from those rst few glasses of wine. !ut e%en from the start, in my early twenties, I liked alcohol. I dabbled in drinking in high school, didn’t drink at all in college, and then after graduation drank moderately 'or at least what I thought was moderately( for nearly two decades. $ometimes it was loud and intrusi%e& other times you could barely hear it.
It was a steady theme throughout my childhood, and it is the background music of my adult life. #y earliest memories are infused with it. !ut the anxiety" It was there from the start. The alcoholism came to me later in life, after years of drinking to ease stress and worry, and to fend o anic. Chasing the Glow I don’t know if I was bo rn an alcoholic, but I was denitely born anxious.
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